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| So...interesting changes of events. I now have a girlfriend! And, as she was formerly my best friend, she knows about my crossdressing. She was neutral toward it at first, but then I started dressing when we'd get intimate...and now she kind of likes it and thinks I'm cute!
I would not have expected this turn of things (well, if anything just getting a girlfriend is a new thing!) But when people are attracted to you, they can often look beyond your skin, so to speak.
Now I've been dealing with different thoughts, like whether I might have some bi-sexual tendencies. It's a little difficult to be sure. I've always been very open with myself about sexual questions, but I've never questioned my orientation. Now it's scary to think that I might be anything different. It's easy to hide crossdressing if you do it in private / just do it in your private places (i.e. undergarmets), but opening up to alternate preferences is hard. I'm not sure what I actually am...I think I really might be bi. I'm not opposed to it or particularly thrilled.
I think that really I'll find out in time, but now I'm just trying to get more information. I've got a very accepting girlfriend though, so I've no intent to change that situation just yet! But it does help to investigate, research, and learn to accept myself.
Cheers mates,
skirtz
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| Hey!
If anyone still reads this, just leave a comment to let me know.
Boy, this site and all my entries were from a long time ago in my life. It's like digital equivalent of stumbling across your old childhood toys or a collection of papers from time out of mind. Then again, it all still applies in a way. Cross-dressing isn't nearly as important as it was to me. I only do it when I'm feeling charged sexually. After a few years of thinking about it, I'm still relatively certain that I'm straight (at least mostly!). I've definitely got a flair for the effeminate, and I definitely enjoy feeling girly and even a little submissive. But I don't think I'd ever want anything like a sex-change or to "come out" as a cross-dresser. It's just not a big deal comparatively to all the rest of the things going on in my life.... As I'm 19, and now in college, I have (of course) been doing plenty of soul searching and questioning what direction I'm moving in.
Then again, I've been asking questions my whole life. The questions that I asked in this Xanga three and four years ago don't seem as immediately worrisome - BUT, of course, they still demand my consideration, at this point in my development.
Any of your thoughts are welcome, as always.
Cheers,
skirtz_n_whatnot...
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| today i did something really cool. none of my family members were home, and my neighbors are rather older people who stay in their houses for the most part. additionally, my back yard is pretty well hidden from their view line. so you know what i did when i was all alone? i went outside and lied down on a towel. anticlimatic? no!! i was wearing my silk thong backwards to make them partial coverage panties, under a pair of tight pink short shorts so that the outline was clearly visible, with a pink girly t shirt. and while laying on the towel in the sun, i poured a glass of water all over my tink pink shorts and i got so wet and it was just awesome!! i love the feeling so much. i then walked back into my house. walking in tight wet short shorts and skimpy underwear is just great! i also practiced swinging my hips. hehe. then, when i got back in the house, i went upstairs and changed into my string bikini and put on a white skirt over it. then i went outside and got all wet again and lied down on the towel to dry off. eventually i took of the skirt and just layed there face down with my bikini clearly visible to the whole world! not that anybody saw me of course, but it felt so good and open. i wish more crossdressers and hot girls could have been there. then we'd have had a big-wet-tight-short-shorts party!
 
from www.xdress.com wish i had those!
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| hey there all. pretty much i just saw wedding crashers. to all of you out there, i highly reccomend seeing this movie. funniest i've seen yet this sumemr in theatres. that doesn't mean much, of course, cause it's the only on i've seen in theatres this summer. there are some really hot girls in it, which made me feel very feminine watching it.
hehe. anyways, now i'm wearing my silllk thong, only backwards because that way they're like partial coverage panties. i really would love to go shopping for some more thongs and panties. currently i have one string bikini, one pair of boyshorts, one silk thong, one light blue thongs, one very skimpy red thong, and three floral thongs. still, only the red one and the silk one do i wear regularly, i'd rather like to buy some more. i'm going on vacation soon, so perhaps while there i'll be able tobuy some more stuff. until then, we'll see! hope everyone's been enjoying their summers. much love. | | |
| hey there everybody, just thought i'd update briefly. i went out on a bike ride one day and got a cute bikini from a local swimwear store. i told them it was for my girlfriend, hehe. it is quite nice. i wear it backwards so that there's less coverage in the back and more in the front, which works better. it's like a floral reddish bikini with string ties. quite nice.
i also almost achieved my goal of one week wearing only women's underwear. only twice was i not in some kind of women's underwear. quite nice. i'd love to do it again. so anyways, not much real crossdressing has been going on lately, cause everybody's always around. hopefully i'll get some more opportunity's this summer.
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